A little white lie and a big black sky. 


Listening to the song ‘Time Go’ by Caught a Ghost, I suddenly started wondering, was there ever a tale, told to kids on many different occasions and in many different places, which said that the stars up in the sky are not Gods or your loved ones who are now dead, but instead, are the lies which we speak on a daily basis. A sky in which each shining star accounts for each lie we speak to others and to ourselves as well. Because, let’s face it, lying to one’s own self is much more dangerous than lying to a different person, as by doing this, which is, the act of lying to one’s own self, not only do we unknowingly prove ourselves to be weak but also cheat our own conscience by convincing it that there was no lie spoken to begin with and hence no sin committed. And this in turn proves that there will never come a time where, a person who lies to himself, will ever commit a sin. 

The way we lie to our own conscience is tragically beautiful in it’s own way, in just that tiny, precise moment, where we realise that what we are doing is wrong, we lie to our own conscience, convince it, bend our morals, and exactly in the next moment– the little white lie becomes an illusionary truth. And thus keeps our conscience clean. And as the “wise men” of the society say, ‘everything we do is right until our conscience is clean’, we deem ourselves in the good club. And just like on a beautiful night, maybe these illusionary truths are the clouds which cover up the little white lies in the sky of the mind, and just like the clouds pass, won’t these white lies too come back, at least once in a while, to haunt the liar? Won’t the conscience, like the winds, blow the clouds away?

This word, ‘Conscience’, is the reason for us being where we are today as a species, the supreme species which are above everything else that moves or lies still on this planet. This word is our greatest friend and also our greatest enemy. It is our greatest weapon and also the chink in our armour. Great things have been achieved when the conscience of the men responsible has been truly clean, where deeds have been done for the greater good, similarly, grave things have been committed where the men responsible have lied to their own self, considering their doings for the greater good.

Humanity is too heavily depended on an illusion called religion, which too is a manifestation of the liar who lied to his conscience in order to escape his own inner torment. That is the main purpose of religion, it helps folk to escape from their inner torment, the torment which their conscience unleashes upon them. The Gods of the religion have been manufactured to act as a portal of escape. Didn’t study for an exam? The examiner should pass you out. Pray. The girl you were in a relationship with has now moved on and is with someone else? Why, she’s a slut, religion says a girl has to stick with one man all her life. Had a girl child for the third time? Your wife is cursed, the alignment of her stars has gone all haywire. And there are a million other religious dogmas which we live in and into which there is no need to go into for the length of this article will increase infinitely.

And when I write the word ‘religion’ I write it to indicate the fake instructions and manuals and dogmas which have been defined as something called a religion. The true meaning of the word ‘Religion’ is very simple, it is a way to live life, and to live it rightly, that is the only truth there is about that word.

This act of lying to one’s own self and imagining that what we do is right, at least from our own point of view, is one of the greatest and gravest diseases there is in humanity. It is not a gift of nature but a curse which humanity has cursed upon itself. And the need for the eradication of this disease, of which the chances are very bleak, still is important. Imagine a sky in your mind, free of all the little white stars of lies, completely dark, imagine this darkness to be beautiful, because, at the end of the day, it is also true, that darkness is the sole reason that we enjoy and appreciate living in the light. And once the sky in our minds is completely clean, the sunrise the next day would be truly divine.

The Comic Tragedy Of Human Life.


On a grimly chilly night, a pair of eyes glowed in the dark, fast and heavy breath echoed in the air, the stomach of a being churned with unbearable hunger, it galloped in the woods, searching for food, dawn was upon it and exhaustion was not far away too. It’s muscles cramped and head felt dizzy, and just at the brink of exhaustion the big bad wolf jumped into a flock of sheep, hunting the food running in front of it. Time, the poor animals had very less. Through their bleats they begged for mercy, but the big bad wolf knew not the meaning of that word. And just when it’s wrath was upon the poor ones, through the dawning sun emerged the Shepard, the saviour, the hero and shot the big bad wolf. The wolf who was hungry from seven days past was happy that it had been put out of its misery, but wished it could’ve lived longer, for he dearly loved his mother, the nature.

Such is the comic tragedy of human life. We are the ultimate species and try to be the heroes in all the stories, even in the primal stories of nature. Had the imaginary Shepard of the imaginary story let the imaginary wolf live, a big tragedy wouldn’t have occurred. And the wolf would’ve done what it’s mother, the primordial nature of life, was telling him to do, survive. It is our tendency to humanise every thing around us, “Be the hero”, make the wolf the “villain”, the sheep the “victims”. Nature doesn’t give roles to its subjects, it’s us humans who do that. The wolf was trying to hunt for its stomach not for its pleasure. Any animal, except the human kind will only kill for hunger and survival, never pleasure or sport, the wolf only hunts when it is hungry, the rest of the time it sleeps, there are no villains in nature of animals, they are only present in the cultures of humans.
It’s funny how we were the only species to develop a conscience, our ultimate weapon, the one which gives us the power to reason, the power to look for the ultimate answer for the ultimate question, but giving us this, our conscience also made us part with our true mother, the primordial nature, for conscience is something she doesn’t breed nor pamper.

Nothing Vs Everything


En-Pleine-ConscienceI am a madman. I live in a realistic fantasy– a fantasy where the classes of the society are not distinguished by lineage, or money, or colour, or caste, or creed but by Knowledge. A fantastic society where knowledge doesn’t distinguish between the dumb and the genius. A society whose knowledge awaits, patiently, for anyone and everyone to get to it, and realize that…      we know NOTHING, but yet, we posses the capability to know EVERYTHING.

Lust Of The Lazy


 

Pic By: Ankur Jha

Pic By: Ankur Jha

O sweet mind of mine,

you are my greatest foe

who wishes me

Prosperity

 of the best kind.

 

You bind me

 in the lifeless chains of horrid thoughts

Blinded, I,  sit in those dark cages

Praying you would throw me some light.

 

I know that you are but a part inside,

One which has taken me slave.

My life is a maze

 full of troubles.

And when I try to crawl out,

You force me to take

a rest.

 

 

In the horrors

 of our case

I’ll gladly soak in the pain

But I hope you know that

There is no running away

When those scars of our ugly games

Sink into your face.

 

 

How long do you think

We can hide in the shadows?

Surely, you of all,

The brave

must know that the day is near

When the glare of the truth

Will even burn our grave.

 

Tell me then,

O sweet mind of mine,

Which fields do you think,

 Our departed soul

Will lie in?

 

 

This lust of the lazy,

Which you make me worship,

Lays in the shrine

Which I will surely destroy,

O sweet mind of mine.

 

Dragging me into the

Dreams of a swine

Will only perish us

O sweet mind of mine.

 

 

What confuses me

Is that

You show me pity

While laughing at my calamity.

But I will battle

Till I climb up that alp inside me

Where I will be the master,

Of you,

O sweet mind of mine.

 

And on that peak

I will wait for that day

On whose dawn

My freedom from myself will shine

O sweet mind of mine.

 

When this happens

You and me will be one.

We will start a new voyage

Liberating ourselves from petty life,

And all the waves we will outrun.

 

Until then let’s just hug and cherish, while drinking wine,

This gloomy night which will never end,

O sweet mind of mine.

Infinitesimal


Infinitesimal

Pic by: Ankur Jha

The farther the light goes, much farther does the darkness run away and the universe keeps expanding towards eternity. And in the midst of all this drama, I, a small stroke o this vast canvas, a small particle of this gigantic debris, keep getting smaller and smaller by the second. What is it in this universe that I really own and control but my mind? Which I hope expands to such proportions that the eternity of the universe becomes a minuscule part of it. This is the only true profit I can earn.

‘What and Where are we?’: The evolution of Life and the birth of Conscience.


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Source:google

There is a great conflict running inside me nowadays. About what and where am I? About what and where are we? Not just as people and humanity but by realizing the fact that how lucky we are to be the only species of living things who can think of asking the question about their own intelligence and existence. Many atheists and dissent anatomists would answer my question by pointing out the work of the great scientist Charles Darwin’s Origin of the species in which he states that ‘populations evolve over the course of generations through a process of natural selection. Individuals less suited to the environment are less likely to survive and less likely to reproduce; individuals more suited to the environment are more likely to survive and more likely to reproduce and leave their inheritable traits to future generations, which produces the process of natural selection.’ Darwin’s main philosophy towards the evolution of life is that everything in this world is Co dependent on each other and that is how the process of natural cycle goes on by the law of survival of the fittest and everything that there is, is a part of nature. He gave us his theory of the origin of Species based on the evidence he gathered while he was on his famous ‘Beagle Expedition’ the 1830’s.  And when a theory is based on evidence and proof it leaves no room for anything supernatural or anything, which is beyond our understanding.

This is where my dilemma starts, because if I was to believe in what the origin of Species states then a couple of doubts arise in my mind. That if everything in this nature is Co dependent on each other and if this has been going on since the inception of life and will go on till the end, then how is it that we humans evolved and are constantly evolving? How is it that we developed culture? How did we become different from the early man? How is that all the other animals still live the same kind of life since their inception? How is it that we became the most powerful species in Mother Nature? Though true till a point, I believe Darwin’s theory is yet incomplete. We humans evolved and became the most powerful species in the nature because of something supernatural, something so complex that is beyond our understanding. And by supernatural I don’t mean the idol Gods of different religions that we workship everyday. Let’s go beyond that, the answer is simple and lies within us. The supernatural thing, which I am talking about, is CONCIENSE (Vivek – in Hindi), which is our unique ability to distinguish between right and wrong, to do or not to do. From where did this complex quality come into our mind? Let’s consider, If we see a big dog trying to hunt a kitten on a street and stop it from killing the poor little thing are we not displaying our unique quality of selflessly helping the helpless and in turn defying nature’s law of survival of the strong?

This is where Hinduism comes in and the atheists lose interest; which is unfortunate because Hinduism was never a religion, it was a way to live life, Dharma. And all the scriptures, which are a part of Hinduism, try to explain us the way to live life and through which we evolve.  Before I dig deeper into what Hinduism ultimately states, there is a very interesting story in the Ramayana, which I read. Nature taking the form of Shakti comes to Shiva to talk about the way of life and Lord Shiva says that Tapasya is the way of Jungle where there is fortune to brute force and the fittest survive, Yagna becomes culture where Humanity thrives. Tapasya is a man’s solitude; Yagna is a man’s household. ‘Indeed, Tapasya is like the shaft of the bow. Yagna is like the string of the bow. Individually they do not create the bow. To create the bow, the shaft has to bend and the string has to become taut. Too loose, the bow is useless. Too tight, the bow will break.’

This was indeed a way to live life. The proper life. The life, in which we evolve and get the quality to judge right from wrong. When one has boiled down Hinduism to its purest level, beyond all the millions of Gods and stories and legends he realizes that Hinduism states only one thing, ‘Knowledge is God’ seek and you shall find it. I believe there is something beyond Mother Nature’s law of survival of the fittest. A super law. And that is Conscience. Something, which I can’t define yet, only state that it is the preliminary part of Knowledge, which resides in our minds. Which reminds me of something interesting my dad said when I asked him about it, that Mind is the actor and Conscience is the director. But the director can’t put his vision or thoughts into action without the actor.

Now I come onto the second issue of my mine, which is not very difficult and long to explain.  Of, where are we today? We humans today live in a society bound by a system, which makes us oblivious to the real happiness of life. We are so entangled and desperate to fulfill the petty and insignificant satisfactions, which are put forth by this society that we forget how to live life. Momentary satisfactions and our struggle for fulfillment of these petty dreams rots away the very foundation of true culture. I would like to state the philosophy of the great 19th century writer Leo Tolstoy, who for me is the greatest author ever to be born on this planet and has written the greatest epic War and Peace. So what Tolstoy tries to say is ‘that there is MINIMUM of free choice; but that people cannot live unless they IMAGINE that they have free will’. Now that is tons and tons of wisdom passed into one sentence and once you think on it deeply it will shatter your perception of society. I just wish we could break these chains of society in which we are bound and could seek the Conscience and Knowledge, which is the ultimate truth. It is very simple to tell this but enormously difficult to even begin with. Anyway, I just think that this quest to find the ORIGIN OF THE CONSCIENCE can be the greatest adventure to live for.

Those last few seconds.


Pic Source: Google MH17 Crash Site

Pic Source: Google
MH17 Crash Site

The sun was on its way to set in Hrabove, the militants were on their usual duty at the Ukraine military base camp, which they had seized. Some of them discussing about the meat and vodka, which was to be served at dinner. Dinner was what they looked forward to the most, in a couple of hours they would be feasting, drinking, singing and having a gala. It was a few minutes past 4 pm when the leader of the militant group Igor Bezler came out of his barrack for his rounds. Strolling through the base camp checking on the militants and gathering reports of the daily records and activities of the camp. The militants who were at ease gathered themselves up in alert whenever he passed them. This seized military base camp was a tension filled area, an area filled with a very scary aura. An area, where only gloom must’ve prospered. In the past few days’ two Ukrainian military aircrafts were shot down by these militants, these militants who were fighting for what they believed in. After a few minutes a militant came and informed Igor Bezler that a plane had been spotted in the militant controlled Ukrainian air space. Igor Bezler looked at the militant in bewilderment, his eyes filled with rage and said “the f**king Ukrainians never learn, do they?” He hurried to the watchtower of the base camp and looked at the plane; further information had come in that this was a Ukrainian cargo plane. After a few minutes of analyzing, Igor Bezler the leader of the pro Russian separatists militant group stationed at Hrabove ordered the launch of a Buk Surface to air missile to bring down the plane which was flying at the altitude of 33,000 ft. When the missile was launched towards the plane, a huge burst from the launch pad made a sound, which was as dreadful as the missile, which caused it. As the missile traveled high up in the sky approaching the plane its sound became more and more distant and soft by the second and just before it hit the plane there was absolute silence. What followed after that was inferno on Earth. After the plane started its dissent to crash on the ground and disappeared a few minutes later, Igor Bezler went on to telephone to report his accomplishment to his superior- colonel of the Main Intelligence Directorate of the General Staff of the Armed Force of the Russian Federation- Vasiliy Geranin.

Igor Bezler: We have just shot down a plane. That was “miner’s group. It fell down beyond Yenakievo (Donetsk Oblast).

Vasiliy Geranin: Pilots. Where are the pilots?

Igor Bezler: Gone to search for and photograph the plane. The plane is smoking and smoldering.

Vasiliy Geranin: How many minutes ago?

Igor Bezler: About 30 minutes ago.

Igor Bezler put the phone down and told Vasiliy Geranin that full report will be given after the examination of the crash site.

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The militants of the Donbass People’s Militia who were stationed in the tiny village of Hrabove, Donetsk Oblast on the 17th of July 2014, were on their regular duty. A duty in which they take pride for being the supporters of the self proclaimed Donetsk People’s Republic. The same duty, which dictates them to protect their Republic from all possible threats. Their love for Russia made them heroes for a Republic and terrorists for Ukraine and arguably for the world. Hrabove a tiny village with a population of around 1000 is in the Donetsk Oblast of the eastern Ukraine. Donetsk is the most populated Oblast (Province) with more than 4.5 million residents, it is also the province with the most tension filled controversies. The Militia which is feared and respected, for they have a strong catalyst, which has helped them spread the fear. Their heavy duty arsenal which consists of various camouflages, self automatic pistols, carbines, assault rifles, sniper rifles, machine guns, grenades and grenade launchers, anti tanks, multi terrain tanks, infantry fighting vehicles, armored personnel carriers, armored scout cars, self propelled field artillery tanks, Air Defense vehicles and towed anti aircraft artillery with missile launchers, man pads, sports utility vehicles and trucks are enough to give fearful chills to any country’s army. Though no concrete evidence exists about where the militia gets its resources, it isn’t hard for people to guess that this Russia loving people’s militia has a very strong country as its ally, a country which also happens to be one of the strongest military force in the world. In midst of all the civil unrest, political turmoil and fear of being at the verge of a devastating event which may be written down in history as one of the most unfortunate, this crisis has come into form through a very complex, twisted and dramatic turn of events, hence it is very complicated to point out the person or group of persons responsible. The story actually begins in 2004, when Ukraine just finished its presidential elections and thus started the Orange Revolution.

The Orange revolution was the immediate consequence of the 2004 Ukraine presidential elections, which took place between Viktor Yanukovych and Viktor Yushchenko, in which Victor Yanukovych won. Taking place from November 2004 to January 2005, the basic angle, which ignited the orange revolution was the revelation of the Presidential election being scarred by corruption, intimidation of voters and electoral fraud. After heavy allegations a re-election was conducted and the initial winner Viktor Yanukovych lost the elections this time to initial loser Viktor Yushchenko. Viktor Yushchenko served as the 3rd President of Ukraine from 2005 to 2010, it was during this time that a woman named Yulia Tymoshenko, who co-led the Orange revolution was appointed as the first woman Prime Minister of Ukraine. Serving for a rather short first term, from January to September 2005, Yulia Tymoshenko was also a very successful but controversial business-woman and one of the richest person in the country. She was even ranked third in the 2005 Forbes magazine’s list the most powerful women in the world. In 2006 Viktor Yanukovych, the candidate who lost the re election was appointed as the Prime Minister of Ukraine in August 2006 and served in office till December 2007 and this same candidate won the Presidential elections in 2010 and served as the 4th President of Ukraine until recently, 22nd February 2014. After Viktor Yanukovych was appointed as the president in 2010, the former woman Prime Minister who also co led the Orange revolution against Yanukovych was, convicted of embezzlement and abuse of power, and sentenced to seven years in prison and ordered to pay the state $188 million. These ironic chain of events and rise and fall and rise of power between powerful people resulted in Ukraine being filled with corruption, mismanagement, currency deprivation and lack of economic growth. It was during these years that the tension, depression and desperation between the common citizens of Ukraine heightened.

After being appointed as the President Viktor Yanukovych desired to develop Ukraine’s capital, which was necessary to maintain Ukraine’s standard of living and economic growth. For doing this without affecting the lives of the citizens he sought to build closer relations with the European Union and Russia. During this process came a step which was an association agreement with the European Union which would provide Ukraine with necessary funds to implement social reforms in all aspects of the Ukrainian society but this agreement came with a few conditions which were that, once implemented, Ukraine had to tear apart all its economic ties with Russia and release the convicted former Prime Minister Ms. Yulia Tymoshenko from prison. Though initially backing this agreement, President Yanukovych later decided that these conditions put forth by the European Union were very severe and didn’t support the future of Ukraine and dissolved it. Thereafter, President Yanukovych signed a treaty with Russia, which sparked civil unrest in the Ukrainian capital Kiev and ultimately led to the 2014 Ukrainian Revolution. The rising tensions in the country and pressures from the EU and Russia made President Yanukovych flee the country leaving Ukraine in a state of anarchy. As the days passed by violent protests between civilians and the law enforcement officials sky rocketed to astronomical heights, the state of Ukraine deteriorated to a tragic agony.

A new interim government was formed in Ukraine to restore order in the country because Russia who refused to recognize the new government took advantage of the treaty signed by Mr. Yanukovych and seized control of the Crimea peninsula situated in Ukraine. Meanwhile, in the capital city Kiev, the new interim government ended up signing the agreement with the European Union, which has bound them to implement new reforms in Ukraine’s judiciary, political, financial and economic systems. At one side is Russia with a signed treaty in their hands refusing to bow down and at the other side is the new interim Government of Ukraine, which is bound by the European Union, which consists of 28 European countries altogether. Russia to thus date blames the European Union and US for the revolution. This tension has led to the constant violent wars between the pro Russian militants and the Ukrainian army at the border of the seized land of Ukraine. In this tug of war the main agenda, which matters is being completely ignored. The agenda of ‘What the people of Ukraine want’.

And in the search for that agenda, in search of who is right and who is wrong, in the pursuit of showing off each other’s power a very unfortunate and inhuman event took place. A event which shattered the crux of all the political agendas, a event which took the lives of 298 innocent people who had nothing to do with this murky and grim dispute between the “powerful”. Those people were traveling in the assumption of finishing the job they intended to do while boarding the flight. 80 of them children, probably weaving innocent dreams in midst of the beautiful clouds when the missile was approaching them. Two thirds of the passengers from Netherlands, many of them traveling on holidays with their families, making plans about what they were going to do after landing in Kuala Lumpur. A few delegates who were heading to the 20th international AIDS conference, hoping that this would be another milestone in the prevention and fight for the curing of AIDS in our world. Students, politicians, actors, people with goals and aspirations in life. They must’ve had a only a few seconds of their lives left when their inescapable fate dawned upon them. The pilot whose radar must’ve sensed the missile headed towards the flight, the mental helplessness which he would’ve suffered in those last few seconds, he must’ve known what was going to happen, but still had hope of saving the precious lives that depended on him. The amount of pain, helplessness, anger, fear and all the other gloomy feelings that exist in this universe must’ve bombarded inside him with each feeling causing more damage than the other in those last few seconds. The innocent children; happily lost in their dreams sitting beside their parents. How would’ve their parents felt when they knew that this was all their children could live in this world, this was all that they could experience in this world, this was their fate which had to be accepted in those last few seconds. A parent for a child is the biggest super hero of all, a parent is the one who solves all the problems of the child. Those 80 children died believing that their parents were going to save them and those parents died looking into the eyes of their children who believed that they would be saved by them, in those last few seconds. And all the other people from so many different nations with all their different potentials of doing great things not just in this world but to the people around them vanished, in those last few seconds. What would those 298 people do if they knew that those were their, last few seconds. They had so many things to do, so many things to say, so many hugs and kisses to give, so many goodbyes to mourn, so many years to live but all that was left was, those last few seconds. In those last few seconds everyone aboard knew that those last few seconds were going to end in tragedy, fear must’ve filled inside them, when the missile hit the plane. Fear of dying, fear of dying a life which, was going to end so unnecessarily, fear that they are going to die a insignificant life. But when the flight started its downfall none of them gave up hope, for hope is the biggest strength of Humanity. Hope of good defeating the bad. Hope of a new dawn. Hope that in the end it will all be alright.  Hope is what defeats fear. Tragic events like these are not accidental; they are agents of fate. Which show us how low humanity can stoop down to. But by showing the dirty depths these agents also showed how high can humanity can rise up if it wants to, in those last few seconds. Humanity, which consist of you and I.

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40 minutes after Igor Bezler had informed Vasiliy Geranin about the shooting down of the plane the militants reached the crash site and realized they had shot down a civilian plane. Who were these civilians, where was the the flight coming from and the enormity of the tragic event which the militants had just caused was oblivious to them. A militant checked around and made the call to his superiors.

Major”: These are Chernukhin folks who shot down the plane. From the Chernukhin check point. Those cossacks who are based in Chernukhino?

Grek”: Yes, Major.

“Major”: The plane fell apart in the air. In the area of Petropavlovskaya mine field. The first “200” (code word for dead person). We have found the first “200”. A Civilian.

“Greek”: Well, what do you have there, what is the news?

“Major”: In short, it was 100 percent a passenger (civilian) aircraft.

“Greek”: Are many people there?

“Major”: A F**kton of people! The debris fell right into the yards (of homes).

“Greek”: What kind of aircraft?

“Major”: I haven’t ascertained this. I haven’t been to the main sight. I am only surveying the scene where the first bodies fell. There are the remains of internal brackets, seats and bodies.

“Greek”: Is there anything left of the weapon?

“Major”: Absolutely nothing. Civilian items, medicinal stuff, towels, toilet paper.

“Greek”: Are there documents?

“Major”: Yes, of one Indonesian student. From a university in Thompson.

Militant: Regarding the plane shot down in the area of Snizhne-Torez. It’s a civilian one. Fell down near Grabove. There are lots of corpses of women and children. The Cossacks are out there looking at all this. They say on TV it’s AN-26 transport plane, but they say it’s written Malaysia Airlines on the plane. What was it doing on Ukraine’s territory?

Nikolay Kozitsin (a Cossack commander): That means they were carrying spies. They shouldn’t be f…cking flying. There is a war going on here.

The militants who shot down the plane confirmed that it was a civilian airplane and decided that it was carrying spies. They cheered, collected all the credit cards, cash and jewelry they could find on the bodies of the dead ‘spies’ and headed back to their base camp where their beloved meat and vodka awaited them.

All the allegations aside, the investigation on what really happened to flight MH 17 has not yet reached a concrete end, though reports also suggest that there was indeed a sighting of a Ukrainian flight near Hrabove.